Tomorrow is the big day. The day of reckoning. The moment of truth. I feel good.
gotta be one of my favorite bands in the last 6 months...
www.myspace.com/midlake
Listening to "Roscoe" right now. Its mid tempo but it just has so much power in it. And singing about living in the woods is not what I would usually say gets me fired up but this band does that; takes something unusual and gives it a romantic, existential coolness. Who needs to relate when you have harmonies???
I texted 3 different women the same text tonight.
"Meet me for a drink...I have 24 hours to live"
no response yet. but it doesn't matter. i'm brilliant.
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
i suck
tonights recording session was all me...and it sucked. I tried to lay down guitars for the 2 songs I brought to the table but it was entirely frustrating and I didn't do well. I feel like I wasted people's time and our money.
First, the tempos are not how I envisioned the songs so that affects how I play. Theres not a lot we can do now since the drums and bass have been laid down. I became self conscious of Daniel (the guy recording us) because I wanted to get it right quickly so he doesn't get frustrated with us having to do it over and over again (since we aren't paying him as much as most studios charge) Well I was in my head about this the whole time.
The good thing was Daniel (our Daniel) and I agreed that we will simply pay him more money if it means getting things right. (Our) Daniel said he doesn't know if he'll ever get the chance to do this again so he doesn't want to feel rushed and I completely agree with him. I will gladly fork over more money if it means we get more time to make things right. This is the biggest thing in our lives right now so its a big deal to take our time and make it good.
Basically I wasn't a very good musician tonight. In fact I listened back to the tracks and was pretty unhappy with everything. I know its just a bad night but I feel talentless right now. Like the songs suck anyway, this is stupid, what am I doing pretending to be a musician and songwriter.
almost as if my identity as an artist was threatened. nights like tonight make me doubt everything about this part of myself.
I'm going to bed.
First, the tempos are not how I envisioned the songs so that affects how I play. Theres not a lot we can do now since the drums and bass have been laid down. I became self conscious of Daniel (the guy recording us) because I wanted to get it right quickly so he doesn't get frustrated with us having to do it over and over again (since we aren't paying him as much as most studios charge) Well I was in my head about this the whole time.
The good thing was Daniel (our Daniel) and I agreed that we will simply pay him more money if it means getting things right. (Our) Daniel said he doesn't know if he'll ever get the chance to do this again so he doesn't want to feel rushed and I completely agree with him. I will gladly fork over more money if it means we get more time to make things right. This is the biggest thing in our lives right now so its a big deal to take our time and make it good.
Basically I wasn't a very good musician tonight. In fact I listened back to the tracks and was pretty unhappy with everything. I know its just a bad night but I feel talentless right now. Like the songs suck anyway, this is stupid, what am I doing pretending to be a musician and songwriter.
almost as if my identity as an artist was threatened. nights like tonight make me doubt everything about this part of myself.
I'm going to bed.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
The Great Depression Part II?
I'm no economist but I'm afraid coming years might be a complete economic disaster for a whole lot of people. Were not talking about oil or the war in Iraq.
Its social security to watch out for.
I have a pretty wealthy friend who is so sure that the looming social security crisis will be devastating that he is pulling his money out of the American "Fiat" economy and investing in Gold and Silver in Europe. He has a giant safe and he is looking into buying a very powerful shotgun. Our conversations freaked me out.
He is certain its basically the fall of Rome. While that may be a bit excessive I too am getting a little scared after the small amount of research I have done.
Read this
The bad thing is neither candidate wants much to do with it. Who would? Every answer ends up pissing off huge groups of people. So whoever wins the election wont be able to stop it.
So it would seem that I have about 4 years to start making serious amounts of money before a major shift in the American economy slaps the shit out of everyone, completely crushing guys/gals with my level of income.
I need to research this more before making any claims but this isn't looking good.
Its social security to watch out for.
I have a pretty wealthy friend who is so sure that the looming social security crisis will be devastating that he is pulling his money out of the American "Fiat" economy and investing in Gold and Silver in Europe. He has a giant safe and he is looking into buying a very powerful shotgun. Our conversations freaked me out.
He is certain its basically the fall of Rome. While that may be a bit excessive I too am getting a little scared after the small amount of research I have done.
Read this
The bad thing is neither candidate wants much to do with it. Who would? Every answer ends up pissing off huge groups of people. So whoever wins the election wont be able to stop it.
So it would seem that I have about 4 years to start making serious amounts of money before a major shift in the American economy slaps the shit out of everyone, completely crushing guys/gals with my level of income.
I need to research this more before making any claims but this isn't looking good.
Monday, July 28, 2008
I know its early but
Halloween in Austin is around the corner again. I gotta have something take my mind off the last post's topic.
Its a total blast to be out then. The weather is cool and the costumes are awesome....
Its a total blast to be out then. The weather is cool and the costumes are awesome....
its the waiting
4 days until I sit down with my boss. This is the definition of mental pacing.
I have all kinds of wonderful reasons why I deserve more money and pray that I recall them all and can speak intelligently during the negotiation process.
I had a dream my boss gave it to me with little hassle. I hope thats a foreshadowing of reality.
Here is the quandry:
The guy is awesome. I like working for him. He is the most laid back wealthy person I have ever met. He wears shorts and hawaiin shirts to work everyday. He tells me that he likes me being there.
so far so good.
Yet.
The guy is super cautious with his money. I don't forsee him just telling me to get lost but I imagine a certain level of presentation so he will understand exactly what I am doing for him dollar for dollar. Which of course is fine for me because I have seriously great numbers. He is making more money with my being there than if I wasn't. Even if he pays me what I feel I deserve he will still be sitting pretty.
So while every fiber of me knows this raise is a very real possibility I have to be my absolute best the day we go over the reasons why. Go to bed early. eat a good breakfast, prepare my figures, organize them, have talking points and not bumble through them like a retard. Be ready for any possible objections and have a good answer for them.
I'm going crazy waiting. I want things to work out so bad that I'm afraid all this extra time to think about it is going to mess me up. I just need to take a deep breath, relax and realize that I am the fucking bomb and deserve every penny. Seriously I'd share the figures but not sure that would be a wise thing over the internet.
Lets all collectively cross our fingers for this (all 3 of you). Its a very big deal to me.
I have all kinds of wonderful reasons why I deserve more money and pray that I recall them all and can speak intelligently during the negotiation process.
I had a dream my boss gave it to me with little hassle. I hope thats a foreshadowing of reality.
Here is the quandry:
The guy is awesome. I like working for him. He is the most laid back wealthy person I have ever met. He wears shorts and hawaiin shirts to work everyday. He tells me that he likes me being there.
so far so good.
Yet.
The guy is super cautious with his money. I don't forsee him just telling me to get lost but I imagine a certain level of presentation so he will understand exactly what I am doing for him dollar for dollar. Which of course is fine for me because I have seriously great numbers. He is making more money with my being there than if I wasn't. Even if he pays me what I feel I deserve he will still be sitting pretty.
So while every fiber of me knows this raise is a very real possibility I have to be my absolute best the day we go over the reasons why. Go to bed early. eat a good breakfast, prepare my figures, organize them, have talking points and not bumble through them like a retard. Be ready for any possible objections and have a good answer for them.
I'm going crazy waiting. I want things to work out so bad that I'm afraid all this extra time to think about it is going to mess me up. I just need to take a deep breath, relax and realize that I am the fucking bomb and deserve every penny. Seriously I'd share the figures but not sure that would be a wise thing over the internet.
Lets all collectively cross our fingers for this (all 3 of you). Its a very big deal to me.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
lazy
dig Sunday's. I woke up at 2.
rented there will be blood yesterday. Daniel Day Lewis was terrifying and sad at the same time. Johnny Greenwood's soundtrack puts you on edge. pretty great film. Makes me wish I could act. I tried it a few times as a kid. I was Joseph (Jesus' dad) in a school play once. I was supposed to point at a star or something and I hit a plant with my hand.
Acting to me is fascinating. I look at the really good ones and wonder if they forget that they are acting sometimes. I know the whole movie making process is tedious and slow so you cant possibly forget can you?
rented there will be blood yesterday. Daniel Day Lewis was terrifying and sad at the same time. Johnny Greenwood's soundtrack puts you on edge. pretty great film. Makes me wish I could act. I tried it a few times as a kid. I was Joseph (Jesus' dad) in a school play once. I was supposed to point at a star or something and I hit a plant with my hand.
Acting to me is fascinating. I look at the really good ones and wonder if they forget that they are acting sometimes. I know the whole movie making process is tedious and slow so you cant possibly forget can you?
Saturday, July 26, 2008
money money money
Its always about money isn't it?
I don't really need much by way of possessions. Other than my musical equipment I don't really have much to speak of or even a very strong desire to acquire more. No plasma television, no enormous DVD collection, no super sexy car. I have friends who are never satisfied and they are rolling in mountains of cash and nice things. Money for me is more about my future (potential wife, kids etc) and right now FUN AND EXPERIENCES. Money gives me the chance to go places and see and do things.
I've been thinking a lot about this because I am going to approach my boss when he gets back from his vacation about making more money. I have been there three months now and I am making him a lot with my marketing efforts so I am very happy with myself. The trial period is over. I am ready to ask for what I am worth. Now I just have to wait a whole week to sit down with him. This has been the biggest thing on my mind lately. I have no clue what outcome it will have. But I have the numbers and logic to back myself up so I am confident it will go well. Soon I will be a typical middle class american. Wait. No way.
I am going to save huge chunks of my income. I am turning 30 with nothing to show for it financially and its a bit embarrassing. I feel the bulk of my 20s was squandered on aimless wandering, the wrong woman and no real focus or goals. That cannot continue.
Yeah!
I don't really need much by way of possessions. Other than my musical equipment I don't really have much to speak of or even a very strong desire to acquire more. No plasma television, no enormous DVD collection, no super sexy car. I have friends who are never satisfied and they are rolling in mountains of cash and nice things. Money for me is more about my future (potential wife, kids etc) and right now FUN AND EXPERIENCES. Money gives me the chance to go places and see and do things.
I've been thinking a lot about this because I am going to approach my boss when he gets back from his vacation about making more money. I have been there three months now and I am making him a lot with my marketing efforts so I am very happy with myself. The trial period is over. I am ready to ask for what I am worth. Now I just have to wait a whole week to sit down with him. This has been the biggest thing on my mind lately. I have no clue what outcome it will have. But I have the numbers and logic to back myself up so I am confident it will go well. Soon I will be a typical middle class american. Wait. No way.
I am going to save huge chunks of my income. I am turning 30 with nothing to show for it financially and its a bit embarrassing. I feel the bulk of my 20s was squandered on aimless wandering, the wrong woman and no real focus or goals. That cannot continue.
Yeah!
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