birthday #32

Okay so it was cool. About 10 people showed up which was right about what I guessed it would be. We had fun. I got drunk and threw up. First time in a long time. Pinnacle of maturity!

A friend took me to Roaring Fork for a nice dinner before meeting everyone out. Very sweet of her and I am ashamed that I ended up puking it up at my front door. At least it wasnt on Abes carpet. But its my birthday!

I got a raise at work and a possible new client so that is also great.

Finally we are playing a legendary Austin music venue tomorrow night. So yeah this has been a pretty great week all around.

Words of Wisdom:

Okay 32. About the same as 31. Sort of. Not really.

I am aware of time's passing now more than ever. For some reason I feel rushed to do amazing things before suburban life takes over and I have a nagging wife and expensive children. (I say this partly with tongue planted firmly in cheek)

And that's the thing. I want to learn how to re-associate new emotions to this fear. I told my friend over dinner that I know exactly what has to happen in my head. I have to believe that marriage and kids equals freedom rather than a limitation. I have to not let the media and my preconceived illusions rule my decisions. Because I know that its all in my perceptions and I don't necessarily have the healthiest view of this whole adulthood thing. Because reality and meaning is totally up to me.

I know that life after the age of 35 doesn't have to be a cheesy sitcom. I know it doesn't stop being exciting at 40. And I simply wont stand for it. Boredom is not an option.

So that's on my mind a lot. Securing my finances, recording this album, making new friends, cultivating the friendships I already have, learning about my new girlfriend, exploring the world, learning as much as I can all the time (Ive been reading a lot lately) and just trying not to take anything for granted and remember to be present in this moment right here. Not worried or stressed about things in the past or whats to come too much because it means nothing anyway.

So not necessarily anything revolutionary (Im no Robert Frost) but there it is.

PS Grandma turns 86 today. Wow.