Bertrand Russell

I am reading The Conquest of Happiness. While dated, Russell nails a lot of important things that make the book worthy of reading. We'll get back to that in a second...

The other day I took two of my friends out on the sailboat and had an awesome day.

In the car on the way to the lake we began discussing stuff we normally talk about. One of the guys was born a Hindu and has a lot of out-of-the-box thinking that I find totally refreshing. He said something about how its important to find something bigger than yourself to believe in. Not necessarily a God (The other friend is an atheist) but something that helps you realize that the world is much bigger than you are.

Then today while reading this book Russell said this...

"The man who can center his thoughts and hopes upon something transcending self can find a certain peace in the ordinary troubles of life which is impossible to the pure egoist"

As I get older I find this is the crux of a lot of my issues. I am usually completely consumed with myself. My thoughts, my actions, what they mean and how they affect others. Its been that way since I was a child. It makes perfect sense that the more you try to dissect the complicated people we are, the more confounded and depressed you will become.

Sure its important to understand yourself but there has to be a line drawn as to what is important to focus on, and what is simply an overdeveloped ego bordering on narcissism.

Definitely glad to be considering these new integrations into my life.

It's Friday night and Im sitting at home. Went to pick up some food and got stopped by a cop. Dead headlight. Suddenly Im happy I didn't go out tonight. That could have been very bad.

I have not written in this blog in a month. Nothing terribly interesting going on. I have two new clients and Im a bit nervous about them panning out long term. I need them to. The first half of 2013 has been a little tight.

I've been sailing every week for about 3 weeks now which has been fun. My friend and I went with two attractive women last week so that was a nice day. Im getting the hang of reading the wind and making the boat do what I want it to do. The wind was so strong last week that it threw us around like rag dolls. I just dropped the sail and turned the engine on like an amateur. But we got back in one piece.

Speaking of attractive women... my dating life is in the feast period as opposed to famine. It cycles around so I know not to get excited or down with every pass but I am enjoying myself for the time being. As usual weird things happen when I am content with my dating life. Women text that I haven't spoken to in forever. I seriously think there is something to this but I can't possibly say what it is.

I've been recording a lot more which is good but I am not working as much because of it so I need to manage my time better.

Im not working out enough. I think Im doing once, maybe twice per week. Not good enough. Im having a hard time getting motivated to exercise.

And I just bored myself to sleep.