Tuesday, June 28, 2011

training a replacement

My overly frugal client wants to hand my services off to his office guy to save money. His employee will probably end up asking for more money with the added responsibility so my boss is essentially saying "here lets give your money to someone else"

The office guy is my friend unfortunately and Im happy he has the opportunity to make more money. But unfortunately its at my expense. 30% of my income.

And now my boss wants me to train him on how I do what I do.

Part of me is like FUCK THAT. But I don't want to burn bridges. And hes willing to pay me for my time.

Im going over my options. I might just ask for a solid amount of cash AND him using his clout to help me find new clients.

Shitty situation. Its just business but its messy.

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Family Weekend (with cops)

So a few posts back I promised big changes were coming. They are here.

The woman we trusted to take care of my grandmother stole $12K from her over the course of a few months. I talked about this before but for some reason she was never kicked out fully. A family meeting was held awhile back with no action taken. Partially because there wasnt a decent investigation into the finances and we were not fully aware how much she actually took.

Since then a lot has gone down. I and my uncle have become my grandmothers power of attorney and we got to see her credit card records. My uncles wife put in countless hours breaking down the checking account.

Long story short, she presented the family one of the most detailed investigations into this woman and my grandmothers finances. She proved to everyone Saturday afternoon that yes, 12K was stolen from my grandmother from this woman and her family. examples: 72 pay per view movies rented in one month for a total of something like $300. Daily packs of cigarettes bought with my grandmothers gas card. Checks written to this woman for "groceries" for $200. 4 and 5 times per month. She was forging checks and my grandmother was clueless.

Everyone stared at the handouts with their jaws open. That day the family in a completely half organized way, swooped in to get grandma to "take her out to eat". Team B swooped in and told the caregiver her time was up. She had 10 minutes to get out. It was tense. Cops were called by both parties. It turned into a bit of a standoff at one point. The woman completely denies the situation. Everything was captured on video in case it got ugly.

We told my grandmother that the woman's health was too bad for her to continue taking care of her, to keep from traumatizing her. The sad thing was we realized recently she had been doing very little to take care of her. Neglect and out right fraud. Adult Protective Services is actually conducting their own full investigation. This may turn out to be a felony case. We wish shame and criminal charges on this woman for what she did.

The next day we packed up a Uhaul full of my grandmothers essentials and she is temporarily moving to Dallas with my aunt. Then we will decide where she goes from there and get the rest of her stuff.

We have checked into assisted living facilities. Considered renting her a house in Wimberly closer to my uncle. Lots of ideas. Decisions will be made in the coming month.

My poor grandmother has dealt with a very negative and neglectful woman for far too long. She was an awful person. The family failed in a lot of ways.

Lots of loose ends that the family has to come together on. We did well this weekend. It felt much longer than a day and a half. Im back in Austin just waking up from a crazy night of no sleep. As soon as I hit Austin again I went out and danced and drank and snuck into a swimming pool with a gal I just met. Had to shake off the heavy weekend of adulthood by being completely reckless. It was just what I needed.

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Stay Focused!

Im in a trial period with a new client. Could pan out to boost my income significantly. Ill have to take a hit for a month or so while I pour my time into the new client who is paying me less. But results will surely solidify him as a decent source of income.

I need to stay focused and think long-term here.

Sunday, June 19, 2011

creature of habit

Just realized Im like my grandfather in a lot of ways. He was a creature of habit who always ordered the same things from restaurants. I would make fun of him for this.

But I just realized I watch the same movies over and over again. The same bands. The same meals cooked at home. Sure I branch out a little but I am more a creature of habit than I realize. I even have a similar goofy sense of humor like my grandfather sometimes. Very weird.

I have to make sure I dont let things slip by me. I have to make an active effort to break out of my comfort zone.

But he was a good guy. I wish I had some pictures of him somewhere but they are with my grandmother. Very soft spoken. I think he could probably count the number of cocktails he consumed in his life. Never smoked a single cigarette. This is where we differ. I need to slow my drinking and smoking down.

I also sometimes find myself holding back affection like he did and that is bad. That's the stuff that will get ya. But as usual my own hyper self awareness will remind me to work on it.

Weird I was just thinking this on fathers day. He was very much a father figure in my life. Albeit a fairly distant one. Still he was kind and had the best intentions. I just think he was locked up emotionally for some reason. And he was too closed lipped to discuss his childhood so who knows what it was like. Mysterious. Analytical. Completely whipped by my grandmother. Soft spoken. Stable. Odd. Funny. A true character.

excellent video

http://www.thestreet.com/story/11156404/1/ron-http://www.blogger.com/img/blank.gifpaul-federal-reserves-addiction.html#ixzz1PjVl7s5d

and a second part

http://www.thestreet.com/video/11157082/ron-pauls-potential-running-mate.html#1006997253001

Friday, June 17, 2011

Friday night!

Awwwwwwwww yeah I'm watching Ron Paul videos. I am the embodiment of rock and roll.

Seriously I am most likely voting for him. I agree with most of what he says. His ability to win people over on both sides is right up my alley. he says shit NOBODY would admit to. He stuck to his issues when no one even cared. But now they care. Its like the world is catching up to the ideas hes espoused for a very long time.

He owned the debates. He owns most conversations with a humility and rationality that gets me excited. Of course I have a lot of research to do on him. I want to see his weaknesses, his bad ideas, strong debates against him. (FEMA, SS etc)

Hes not much of a public speaker in terms of charisma but his words are powerful. I like Ron Paul. Yep.

kickball

so I started playing kickball with a guy I work with. Should be fun. We lost last night. I was instrumental in both our scoring and our loss. So I guess that pretty much puts me back at square one.

The best part is you can drink the entire time. On the field. Off the field. Driving home. Well. Maybe not driving home.

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Debates

Here are the debates for the GOP

http://politicalticker.blogs.cnn.com/2011/06/14/video-the-new-hampshire-2012-debate-in-full/?&hpt=hp_c2

Seems to me Ron Paul is the only guy who really knows whats going on with our economy.

Monday, June 13, 2011

big things coming

I want to document this moment as the before period of something that is coming up later this month. Details soon, its too early to speak about.

But soon a lot of things are going to change.

Sunday, June 5, 2011

Lost

I made the mistake of watching the first episode of Lost. I had gone the entire near decade run of the show having never seen an episode.

I planned on making fun of it and being impervious to its charms.

Nope.

Its really good. I'm 10 episodes in within a few days. I cant imagine it staying good for 7 seasons or whatever but man its quite the show. Addictive.

I'm so disappointed in myself.

Thursday, June 2, 2011

steal my records

I really like how I'm finding music to be more and more important for me to get by. It's a codependency that I warmly embrace.

I find my tastes are starting to change. I know I go through periods where I want to rock the 80s or listen to good electronica but lately its coming down to honest music. The Avett Brothers, Bon Iver kind of stuff. And it feels more nourishing to sit and soak in that kind of music for me now.

I need it more than ever. I hope that never goes away.

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

date with a "High Maintenance Hippy"

before I go out to restore my sanity, I thought i would document a recent date. She was a total contradiction.

Religious. Claimed she was high maintenance. But a hippy. Oh and also a commitment-phobe. Said she cant remember the last time she read a book. Said shes always looking for the next best thing with men.

Was she hot? Of course. But hilariously awful in every other way.

Only listens to Christian music? Really? Really????

And yet I found myself wanting to do very dirty things to her despite her atrociousness. That's the weird thing about being a guy. The emotions of mental disgust and sexuality are not linked in any conceivable way. Or maybe I'm just a horrible person.

padded room

In many ways my life is pretty freaking awesome right now. Good job (new client's check on my table), album on the horizon, 5-7 new songs that I'm proud of, living in one of the coolest cities ever.

Yet...

Ive said this before but damn this working from home is MFing ISOLATING. I end up going out practically every night to shake off the insanity. My brain starts coming up with some very screwed up things. I think utter isolation is most definitely worse than any form of punishment known to man.

Beat me senseless. Rip off my toenails. But leave me 100% alone for a few years and that would just about do me in. At least psychologically.

And being the curious guy I am, I wonder WHY. Why is it we literally fall apart if left alone for long periods of time. We do people marry the wrong person simply because they'd rather fight and bicker than be alone. Is it the reason we have kids?

Possibly when we were small bands of tribes, being totally alone meant you would be eaten or killed. So thousands of years later we seem to have developed a distaste for it. I know a wooly mammoth is not going to come in and devour me. Yet I called a friend tonight and we're meeting at Trudy's because I gotta get OUT. Should I be drinking again? Probably not. But there's only so much work I feel like doing and Hulu I feel like watching.

A cold beer and an actual human being sounds nice tonight. And maybe a cigarette. Yes. Yes. yes.