The party went great. Lots of people came and wished us farewell. I think we made a lot of money but I wasn't responsible for that so not sure exactly. But I know we paid for the party and then some.

I played some songs I had never played in front of anyone. The response was great so that made me happy. A lot of my good friends showed up. I didn't get too drunk. Everyone had fun. It was a perfect way to wrap up our 5 years as a band.

Last night I went to a giant Halloween party. Nothing much more to say about that. Just lots of crazy costumes and hot women in skimpy clothes they reserve for one day a year. One of my clients hosted it and must have spent a fortune. They had a fun house, DJ, blah blah. I took some crazy pictures that I am too lazy to post right now.

Last night I went on a date with a woman who has a 6 year old. Get used to it I tell myself.

I think about that and deciding only to date childless women definitely narrows the pool down for me. But its a huge decision to date a woman with a kid because obviously the kid comes first and you are going to share your time. That and I am not sure if she will ever want more if that is something I decide I want someday.

Obviously I am not thinking like that about this woman, but in general these are things you have to consider when are ready to meet someone long term. I think I'm just going to be perfectly upfront about my hesitance to get too serious with a woman with kid. If I get any inclination this is not ideal for her, Ill bail. She didn't strike me as a woman with Daddy radar. But obviously being open about this kind of thing is vital.

The date was pretty fun. Lots of making fun of each other which is always cool. Also nice long moments where she would just stare at me saying nothing. She was cute in a non-traditional way but still very cute. She had no qualms showing her attraction to me and was very vocal about it. I eat that stuff up obviously. She went for the kiss before I did which is very rare for me. As I was driving away she actually walked up to my car to kiss me again before I left which I found pretty awesome.

Why can't the hot, childless, nubile 25 year old do that? I think I answered my own question there.

Just took on a high profile realtor as a client. Providing results for this guy is going to be a priority for me because he knows tons of other realtors. I am a bit nervous but looking forward to the challenge.

Watched another French film last night. This one translates to Chloe in the Afternoon.

Once again heavy dialog and themes of dealing with sexuality. Successful married guy with kids lives in a city surrounded by beautiful women. Guy would be considered happily married but still fully aware of the temptations he deals with daily. Hot secretaries, women on the street that fascinate him etc.

He meets up with an old friend who lives a more youthful existence, helps her out of a few jams and they begin to spend time together in the afternoons. Their lack of commitment to each other is freeing to him. He describes how the role he plays for his wife keeps them from truly connecting sometimes, but with her there are no obligations so he feels comfortable and at peace with himself.

She eventually tells him she loves him. She says she has always wanted a child but no man would ever fit the bill. Even though he's married she wants the father to be him and he can walk away. It almost happens but as he's in the bathroom he reconsiders (in a very nicely done way), turns on the faucet so she cant hear him leave, and escapes.

He then goes home and tells his wife all the things about their relationship that he was scared to tell her. She breaks down and admits her flaws and they go to the bedroom. The film ends abruptly. Like all these films you're left with... Wait... what? Ah. Nice.

Its funny but the descriptions of these movies sound awful. But the dialog is impressive and weird little choices like the camera focusing more on the person listening rather than speaking make it interesting to watch.

My favorite review I read about it sums it up nicely.

"a beautiful character study about what it is to love one woman and yet be in love with all women."

In the Prologue when main character walking down the streets of Paris as his inner voice describes how the city makes him feel alive (and exactly how) is a moment I really connected with.

Got a call from a guy I know through other people asking if I want to play guitar for a 4 song set of New Order covers. I love New Order so I agreed. I have two weeks to learn the songs and the show is on Halloween. Im actually going to be singing on Ceremony (great song) so I have some work to do between now and then.

I haven't played live in over a year. Its about time to get back up there again. Even if its for a few people I'm looking forward to it.

Aside from that I'm growing more and more restless for some reason. I just tried to explain it a bit but nothing sounded like a solid enough explanation so Ill just leave it at that.

Been watching Hulu's Criterion Collection which has something like 700+ old movies. Last night's film was a French Film (famous French director, Truffaut) called The Soft Skin. Simple premise. Guy has an affair but it gets complicated. Wife shoots guy in a cafe.

The one thing I noticed about these films I have watched is the dialog (subtitiles of course). The few movies I have seen so far all are heavily focused on dialog. In fact each of these films could be a stage play the dialog is so critical. They don't have much buildup or anticipation like modern American films but the acting is usually great, the film doesnt feel like a movie and most seem to end ambiguously. I actually like the two French films I've seen so far. I used to think all films made before the 70s were like the American black and white movies where the actors sound horribly fake and the music is cheesy. Not so with older foreign films. You actually have a hard time picking out the time-frame if it wasn't for the fashion, cars and telephones they use.

I went to ACL yesterday. The standout show for me was the Avett Brothers. Their lyrics make me feel like I'm morally and spiritually bankrupt sometimes. I want that level of hopeful sincerity. Red Hot Chili Peppers closed the night up and despite them having very talented musicians in the band (Flea is a modern day Jaco Pastorius), I thought they sort of sucked. Bad songs are bad songs regardless of how technically flawless they are executed. Under the Bridge was kinda interesting because that song is indelibly burned into my brain from high school. Crystal Castles had sound problems but it seemed like something I could get into. Civil Wars also had sound problems and I was too far away to hear them. They were probably amazing. Two Door Cinema Club surprised me with infectious dancy pop. I watched a bit of Iggy and The Stooges but honestly it only interested me historically. The music was just terrible garage shit and a shirtless old man running around awkwardly.

There were a lot more people this year it seemed. Not sure but I think they let more and more people in every year and it becomes this sea of people. I was in the middle of a giant mob moving in different directions and just completely overwhelmed with humanity. I also felt old as I oggled ridiculously hot chicks who were probably barely 21. Enjoy it now ladies. Its coming for you too.

Today I write a check to the IRS. A large check. I have potential clients in the pipeline. I am wary of my ability to bring results for a couple of them. But I'm going to try.

I have not worked out in weeks. I can tell. Time to get things back on track. I've been slacking on a lot of things and Im pretty dissatisfied with my motivation levels lately.

I cant prove this but I think women have a weird psychic connection that tells them when a guy's dating life is going well. I was in a vast wasteland of datelessness for awhile and within a couple days I have 3 dates lined up and texts from girls I haven't talked to in months. When it rains it pours.

I've noticed this on several occasions. Exes will call right as I get into a relationship and they have no way to know it was happening. Very strange phenomenon.Probably a coincidence but its eery sometimes.

How will these dates go? Who knows. But glad to finally get out of the drought.

I am sitting in a room full of people I do not know. We all pay money to get out of the house and work from this location. Basically a bunch of folks like myself I think its funny that I am paying $100 per month to do this but it is already proving itself valuable. Just getting out of the house and working around other people like me (and still having a lightning fast internet connection) is very important to my sanity. 

Apparently the networking opportunities are also great. More on that as it develops.

I was made for this cooler weather. Went to a beer fest yesterday and it was something like 62 degrees. I felt more alive than I have in awhile.