You can take your past and have it crush you or you can own it and move forward with new knowledge and clarity. Mistakes are valuable. Repeating them is the crime.

I've screwed up. I've been cold. I've hurt people. I've held back. I've used and manipulated. I've wanted others to feel my loneliness. I've taken selfishly. I've wallowed in my id with no regard for anyone but myself.

Its not fair. Its terrible. I've lost and suffered because of it. The loneliness was worse because of it. But on the other side is a calmer me, aware that person no longer exists. He's chosen a life full of real friends, real love and true happiness.

Getting there.